today i had my first official swim mete as an individual swimmer. i swam the 50 free and 100 free and placed 2nd and 1st, respectively. it was so exciting. im very happy about it. its kind of weird because these past weeks ive been so bothered by swimming and ive been resisting the idea of quitting (which i wont let myself do) and ive been dealing with a couple of mean girls on the team. i wish i could say that ive been trying my hardest but i havent and now i think im ready to swim like hell.