i think im really lucky to have the friends i have. my parents always said that im lucky that i have the ability to choose good friends, but in reality, theyre the ones that choose me. whenever i go to hillary's concerts, gill tells me what a good friend i am. i never really know what to say; i dont do go because i think that its my duty or anything, i do it because i love her. after all these traumatic, divine, seemingly endless years, i still love her. because really, she's grown into me; which seems so bizarre because i dont know how many times we have stood at different ends of an issue. but the beautiful thing is, although we are such different people, she always has a way of making me feel whole. i feel so whole that it brings me to tears. the support that comes from me is something earned, something deserved. i guess my love is something that i've always had for her, and she me. innate love that will never change, because now it runs deeper than friendship, it runs through the vessels in my body. its so ridiculous and naive when i look back on my papers from school with our initials written above the "B.F.F", i still laugh at it and shake my head in shame. but while so many childhood friendships fade from years of distance, i feel like ours really can last forever. it's already been almost decade, so hell, we're already on our way there.
